Beth Moore said In His sovereign wisdom, God requires His children to exercise the will and action to deliberately take what He graciously gives. - He often lays out gifts but He wants us to push ourselves through the fear of ourselves..through the fear of failing...He will make sure that we get the gifts but we have to reach for it..we sometimes have to crawl through the fear and pain to get to it.
God is developing muscle in us to hang on, to defend what He gives us. He gives but we have to go get it. Take what we've been given. The enemy often plays "Chicken" with us. Hold straight. Trust the path. Do not look left or right. Stay straight and trust.
I typed this up several weeks ago in the midst of doing "The Inheritance" Beth Moore bible study. It obviously means a lot. Beth Moore is amazing. I read this again today and I laughed. Oh God...He is a funny guy! What Beth Moore shared with me a few months ago means so much now.
God not only gives us gifts and asks us to get off our lazy butts and go get them. But He does it again and again. It's funny after you crawl through a period of life and then stand with bloody elbows and dirt on your face...it's pretty great to realize that God got me through that!!...I'm too reserved, uneducated, and self conscious to have done that just by myself bc just by myself I wouldn't have done a thing. It was all Him.
Everyone has ups and downs...yes some of those ups are amazing for some people and for some it's just good times of wonderful contentment and yes some of those downs are harder on some people than others to an extent we may not understand.
"The will of God will never take you to where the grace of God will not protect you" is a quote I always reflect on. God rescues and protects me(us) from all harm. Psalm 91:9,10 If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your dwelling.
So no matter what crap we go through or what happiest of happy moments we get. God is the only thing that never changes. So even when we are searching for who we really are and who we are suppose to be in this world. God knows! We may think we do and sometimes we get real comfortable and confident about our path...sometimes when things are good and our heads get too big to get in the door...He throws in a kink to the plan...makes this life hard again. Well guess what...life is hard! It's going to be hard! Like Beth said...We have to exercise our faith. Keep building that muscle. Deflate that swollen head and come back to reality...it hurts a little less when we get slapped in the face if we have a God formed strong willed head on our shoulders.
We can't control what God or the world throws us. Sure we can hide from it. I do that sometimes. But even hiding doesn't change anything. God is still giving us gifts that we need to step up and take responsibility for. And the world always seeps into the cracks and finds us too. God placed us here to be a part of this place. There is a reason we are here now. Sometimes in the world the bad stands out and pull at us more than the good...but we got to stay strong, got to stay on that path, we can't look left or right and dwell on the bad, we have to stay straight on that path God lays for us each day!
1 Corinthians 2:9-10 says No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him...but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.
I say all this because I question my own path often. I'm not criticizing you for your life or your choices. I'm talking to myself mostly and maybe it will help you too.
But I get unsure because I still feel so new and I'm not this super Christian who breathes out scriptures (i have to research and look stuff up and then the next day I may have to look it up again) and I'm not real outspoken and still working on be comfortable with praying aloud. Yet God placed me in a situation that I have to speak up. That I have to help others in ways that I don't really know how. God has me here for a reason...His reasons not my own. Sometimes I see it...sometimes it takes a good friend to tell me what I can't see. But I'm on the path! I'm building muscle and holding tight. It's pretty scary at times! But He is working through me...ME. I don't feel like I deserve to be used to help others when I still have so much to work on myself...but it's not my choice. He knows what we are capable of. He gives those gifts and if we step up and take it He will use us when and where He needs us. He will reveal it to us by his Spirit!
Sorry if this is a little jumbled and confusing at times...I'm not a writer. I'm just a girl sharing a journey.
