Ya know...you think with age and wisdom life would get easier. Well...it doesn't!
I'm not saying that i am this great wise person that deserves a great life. I've seen and gone through enough trials and tribulations to have learned a few things in my 30 years. And I definitely do not deserve anything. Sure...I am blessed beyond what I deserve. I have more than what I need. I have a wonderful family that loves me. God blessed me with a job that I love where I get to see great college students develop and grow in Him and into the people He wants them to be. It's wonderful!
Of course it's not all bright and shiny and sparkly good...but God is still using it to help me grow.
Some days I think...God, I can not handle any more! I just need a chance to breathe!
That has been how the past 2 weeks have been...not just one day but weeks. Just one thing piled on top of another and just when one thing gets worked out here comes 3 more things. I feel like I am emptying my cup to lots of people and things and as it begins to get filled back up I'm emptying it before I really get built back up.
Of course the more that is piled on my plate the more I want to control it to make sure it gets done. Well we all know how and where controlling things ourselves usually gets us. No where.
So here I sit...no where...with an empty cup.
Just praying....
God fill me up and continue to use me! I know you have good things that will come out of all of these difficult times. Romans 8:28. I know you have great plans for my life. Plans that are good and not harmful. Jeremiah 29:11. I pray that you just please keep me strong..build me up...I don't want to fail you any more than what I already do. I pray that Your grace continues to overwhelm my brokenness. Thank you Lord for never leaving my side even when many times I push you away.
Thank you!
