imprint on my heart

I haven't blogged in FOREVER! Sorry. It's not that I haven't felt lead to..it's just that when I get time to I've been way too exhausted. Plus we had some major internet issues in the dorm. I still don't get internet in my bedroom and that's where I normally no my best blogging. ;)
Anywho, it has been a great semester regardless of internet issues. Challenging but great!

Every year I'm here at CBC I meet some amazing people. Amazing people that I hope to have in my life for a long time preferably forever!
Even though I knew for a while that the group of newcomers this year was a good one, it wasn't until toward mid-spring semester that I realized that sure enough it's another really amazing group! The semester was a lot of fun but there were also many days that simply put an imprint on my heart.

I know I'm suppose to be here to mentor these kids and help them grow and make them feel at home. I love this job! Every year it's the students that force me to continue to grow...even though they may not even know it. I'm still growing just like they are but some of them are simply amazing. I can see God flowing inside and out of them.

God uses us in ways that we don't understand sometimes. He definitely keeps pushing me to step outside of my little comfort zone almost as soon as I get settled into it...Constantly He keeps doing this. :) Not only was I blessed with great students who I look up to in their walk with God but this semester He called me to disciple one of them. Me?...really? Ok?!. (It's hard to say No to God). Well... I'm pretty sure I failed. But I bought her a good book if that counts for anything. We ran out of semester and she isn't coming back to school here. So I'm a failure at discipleship because I use the world to fill my time leaving no time for such things. AWFUL!!! I hope He gives me another chance.

He also has forced me to cut ties that I wasn't really ready to cut. I know it is for the best. It's still hard sometimes. He has greater things in store and more great people for me to meet.

I have a lot of emotions about this semester from the sadness of possibly not ever seeing some of these students again, the gladness that all their drama is not in my life and in my dorm for the summer, and the emotion of not really having much of a life outside of this place.

I'm really looking forward to seeing what God has in store for me this summer. I don't really have much planned but with a willing servant heart who knows what will happen. :)